It’s the funniest, yet not so funniest to be almost over someone you caught feelings for, only to be smacked back down by them the moment they pay you any sort of attention 🥲
And it’s distressing knowing that your unable to talk about this with people closest to you cause you’ve already spent so much time whining about him already 😂
And then knowing full well that in the timeframe you thought you had gotten over your original crush, you caught uncalled for feels for another guy who literally does not swing in your direction. So you’re torn between liking a guy, you know full well has some sort of interest in you, but is flakey and a guy that almost 99.99% doesn’t, but he’s adorable and shares a lot of the same interests and humor as you.
Obviously crushing on the second guy, who is more than likely straight is just out of the question.
But it’s difficult when you’re drawn to the personality, humor, and adorable fuxking smile.
But crushing over the first guy is just as complicated because he’s so flakey. Literally made plans to go out for lunch with you after the last time ya’ll spent the night together, leaving you to wait for 3 hours, to no response to where ya’ll were gonna go 🥸
But he’s actually shown interest in you, you know full well he swings in your direction, you can enjoy just relaxing and watching movies together, seeing him perform and achieve greatness in his art and work makes you so happy and genuinely proud of his accomplishments. Cuddling with him is superb and you’re able to have actual conversations during the most interesting of situations.
But you don’t know how to approach either situation because people scare you and you expect disappointment with everyone in your life, especially those you’ve had feelings before because never once have they been reciprocated to the degree you give to others. So you sit at home and creep cause that’s the only thing you can do to see them because you’re too afraid to say jackshit 🥲
